a thin ray of sunshine seeps over my skin at his thoughtfulness. my heart is so easily won over by the most seemingly minute gestures of kindness. this is what makes connections with people so terrifying. i’m too quick to give my heart away. it’s as if i’m begging for it to be ripped in pieces, and it has on many occasions before. with that reminder, i push the feeling aside knowing that peter will one day leave me to die too